Sunday, September 30, 2012

Expectations About Waiting

Last night I had a dream I was eating ice cream with sprinkles. I am not sure what this means, probably that I was hungry and I needed to eat some tasty ice cream! So later on in the day I went with someone special to get ice cream... It was special. Just in case you didn't know I really like ice cream. It is cold and sugary and just plain good! I'm not fat, or even chubby I just really like ice cream.

Today was an interesting day. I didn't do much. Went shopping at the mall to find out they ran out of the item I wanted the day it came out! Crazy right. I know.... people these days. Oh well... Then I got ice cream with my someone special. Later to paint my nails and watch the season premiere of my favorite show. I had been waiting months for it to come out, but it wasn't what I was expecting. After it was over... it was just over. Nothing more and nothing less, just a TV show. It was good and I liked it, but yet waiting months for one hour to pass by seems kinda silly to me now that I think about it. But yet that is how I live my life, and I think that needs to change. I always do this, I wait for moments to happen, expecting for things to be firework spectacular but they are just normal, and the exact way any normal person would have expected. But I always imagine things ten times more wonderful than they could ever be. I mean like soft pop music happening in the background as I stare out the window and see the love of my life standing in the rain holding flowers waiting for me. I realize that this won't happen but you get my point. Waiting months or even weeks for moments that only last an hour or two. I feel like I'm wasting time waiting all that time, for something that only lasts one tenth of the time that I waited. I should be living letting new moments happen, and letting unexpected things happen that don't have some crazy expectation attached.

But also expectations in life can be good! They help you to be the person you are. But yet they can also be unhealthy and lead to disappointment and regret. Don't let your expectations drag you down, let them build you up. Waiting can be good, but don't waste your life waiting for something, live your life and let that moment comes when it comes. Cause if you freak out and worry about it, it won't make it come sooner, if anything it will make it feel like it is coming slower. And you will miss wonderful things along the way. Let your waiting be short and your expectations for your future be high.

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