Growing Like the Colors

Thursday, today was a good day! Tomorrow is friday I can't wait. This week of art work week is coming to an end! But I am going to start posting art work more I think. Thanks everyone for reading it! You are all amazing.

I did this painting last year. This is my view on the light spectrum. You can probably tell this is a light bulb, but the colors are suppose to be growing out of it. This was a really fun painting to do! I learned a lot about how much shading and highlighting can really make a painting come alive! I like this painting a lot! I really struggled because of how abstract this painting is but It helped me grow along with the color.

Every painting or piece of work helps me grow.

Humans and Trees

Wednesday, pat yourself on the back because you made it half way through the first half of the week! Just think we are that much closer to Friday and the weekend. This week is art work week! Hope you are liking it!

This is a tree done in watercolor. I did a whole segment in a watercolor pad of trees doing different things. This one the sun is setting, in one it is going through a storm, in another it is starting to grow leaves again after the long winter. I did this segment or study on trees one because I really like trees and two because I think that a tree is a good representation of a human. Because when you just a tree down you see the ripples in the trunk, and you can see everything that the tree went through. You can see when the tree went through a drought, or when it would get hit by lightening, or even when it would go through a good season and it would grow. Humans are like that, we each have a core and when we look at that we can see everything that we have been through. We can see how everything has effected us. I did this little series because I wanted to represent the different things that people go through.

Remembering the Plan

Tuesday, and man has it been a long day. I'm ready for the weekend! Well this week is art work week! Hope you enjoy!

This is also one of the first paintings I ever did. I started with just the yellow flower and then had the thought of just doing a whole flower! To me this represents the different things in life you go through. And the different parts of your life. Of my life really. Like the four seasons of the year, life has seasons. As you look at the different flowers you see difference obviously, but the hardest part is sometimes seeing the whole picture, seeing how one day it will all fit together. As I move through different seasons of life I change, but someday it will all fit together and I will be the woman that God has called me to be. Just like this painting. When you look at the canvas apart it won't be whole, it won't make sense. But when you put it together you see what the creator had in mind. And you see why you went through all the seasons and changes that you did. It just may be difficult sometimes to turn over a new leaf, or change the color of your flower. And see things through a new lens. But God has a plan.

You may only see a small part now, but someday you will see the whole picture, and you will see that God had a plan all along.

Painting My Heart

Monday, the start of the work week, or school week depending on how old you are. This week is Art Work week, every day I will post a photo of my artwork and I will write about it.

This is one of my favorite paintings I have ever done. This painting is very special to me because it is the painting that called me to be a painter really. It was the painting that was actually good. This painting took me about 4 days to complete. When I look at this piece I think of the story of how I became an artist. I see myself as a kid drawing cartoons on the back of my spelling tests. I would fail the test but the teacher would always comment and say nice drawing. When I finally took my first art class freshman year of high school, I learned who I was. I learned I could express every emotion I felt through a pen and paper, which later turned into a brush and paint. I see myself. I know it is actually a flower, but this is my heart. It is big and red. It has layers, but in the middle when you get to the deepest part you see who I am. The more you look at me, or the flower the more you learn about who I am as a person.

My heart is in my paintings.

A Painters Story

Sunday, the start of a new week. A new fresh week. I need one of those for sure, last week was very rough. I forgot to mention this yesterday but this week has a theme since last week didn't! This week is going to be Art Work Week. Get excited! I am going to post a photo of a painting everyday, and tell you why I did it and how I did it. Every painting has a story. Every painter has a reason to paint.

I painted this today actually. Since I had such a rough week and I was full of weird different emotions so I paint. The things at the top are all different colored blue, purple, gray and black crayons that I melted onto a canvas. I choose a red umbrella to represent my heart. The melting crayons are rain. I was completely heart broken when I did this. So upset that on the top I go the lighter too close to the canvas and burned  a whole. I guess that shows more of my heart and how upset I am or was. Every painting has a story, This paintings story is I am heart broken, and there is only one person in the world that can fix it and that is why there is only one umbrella.

Remember every painting has a story, and every painter has an expression and reason to paint.

Learning to Love

Saturday, today was another rough day. I don't even know how to describe it. A roller coaster of emotion for sure. My family had practice Thanksgiving today, to practice all the food we are going to make for Thanksgiving. Really I just think that they all wanted to eat a bunch of food today and they came up with Practice Thanksgiving.

We all have those moments when we say something we don't mean or do something stupid we regret later. And normally I feel like we regret it within like 10 min of when we say it. But then we realize something, we realize how much we really care. Because we regret what we said, whether its mean or whatever we realize why we shouldn't have said it and why we care so much. I did this today. And it almost cost me the one I love most. But I think it's a good thing, I think I learned alot. I learned a lot about myself, and I learned a lot about him. I'm going to share some of what I learned.
About me: I never knew I could love someone this much, I never knew my body could take the amount of physical and emotional pain that I went through today. I never knew I could all the things I do. I can be a pushy person, and I like to get my way. I need to be more understanding, and I need to think before I talk.
About someone else: I never knew I could feel the way I do about them. He has changed my life. Helped me become who I am today. He is more than I could ever hope for in a friend and in a person and I don't tell him that enough. He keeps me in line, letting me know when I'm wrong, even though I hate hearing it and never react well to it. He loves me and I will always love him.
Now when I say love I mean it. I mean, forever, never changing for real love. And a verse that comes to mind is the one that describes love.
"Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails." 1 Corinthians 13:4-8 NIV
I like the way another version says it. 

"Love never gives up. Love cares more for others than for self. Love doesn’t want what it doesn’t have. Love doesn’t strut, Doesn’t have a swelled head, Doesn’t force itself on others, Isn’t always “me first,” Doesn’t fly off the handle, Doesn’t keep score of the sins of others, Doesn’t revel when others grovel, Takes pleasure in the flowering of truth, Puts up with anything, Trusts God always, Always looks for the best, Never looks back, But keeps going to the end. Love never dies."

I would really like to love like this and I think from now on I'm going to try my best to love like this. 

Because I feel like if I don't love like this, it isn't love. 

I can promise you that my love will never fail, and I will always do my best to follow this. 

Because real true love never fails, and neither will we.

Hard Times

Friday, today didn't even feel like much of a Friday, in fact most of the day I couldn't remember what day it was. I'm glad it is finally the weekend, I need rest. It has been a rough week.

You know those moments when you just don't understand things. Like when you don't understand why someone said what they said, or why this is happening to you. It seems like we always feel this way when things aren't going our way, when things are going poorly. I seem to understand people less the worse things get. I seem to stop understanding why they say the things they say. And why they do what they do. It's odd.

When things go bad, be you. When things aren't going well hold on tight to the ones you love because they are the ones that will help you through.

Sickness

Thursday, Today is not any normal Thursday it is the start of a new month! How exciting. I hope you guys like the artwork from yesterday!

Those oh so special days that turn into those oh so horrible days. It's always a bummer when you are sick. You just can't be yourself when you are sick. Today's blog will be short because I need rest.

I would like to thank everyone who has been following the blog so carefully! I hope you are enjoying it! I'm glad that at least one person cares to hear my thoughts that just go out into the abyss we call the internet. Tomorrow will be better but I feel very sick tonight. I'm sorry!