Learning to Love

Saturday, today was another rough day. I don't even know how to describe it. A roller coaster of emotion for sure. My family had practice Thanksgiving today, to practice all the food we are going to make for Thanksgiving. Really I just think that they all wanted to eat a bunch of food today and they came up with Practice Thanksgiving.

We all have those moments when we say something we don't mean or do something stupid we regret later. And normally I feel like we regret it within like 10 min of when we say it. But then we realize something, we realize how much we really care. Because we regret what we said, whether its mean or whatever we realize why we shouldn't have said it and why we care so much. I did this today. And it almost cost me the one I love most. But I think it's a good thing, I think I learned alot. I learned a lot about myself, and I learned a lot about him. I'm going to share some of what I learned.
About me: I never knew I could love someone this much, I never knew my body could take the amount of physical and emotional pain that I went through today. I never knew I could all the things I do. I can be a pushy person, and I like to get my way. I need to be more understanding, and I need to think before I talk.
About someone else: I never knew I could feel the way I do about them. He has changed my life. Helped me become who I am today. He is more than I could ever hope for in a friend and in a person and I don't tell him that enough. He keeps me in line, letting me know when I'm wrong, even though I hate hearing it and never react well to it. He loves me and I will always love him.
Now when I say love I mean it. I mean, forever, never changing for real love. And a verse that comes to mind is the one that describes love.
"Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails." 1 Corinthians 13:4-8 NIV
I like the way another version says it. 

"Love never gives up. Love cares more for others than for self. Love doesn’t want what it doesn’t have. Love doesn’t strut, Doesn’t have a swelled head, Doesn’t force itself on others, Isn’t always “me first,” Doesn’t fly off the handle, Doesn’t keep score of the sins of others, Doesn’t revel when others grovel, Takes pleasure in the flowering of truth, Puts up with anything, Trusts God always, Always looks for the best, Never looks back, But keeps going to the end. Love never dies."

I would really like to love like this and I think from now on I'm going to try my best to love like this. 

Because I feel like if I don't love like this, it isn't love. 

I can promise you that my love will never fail, and I will always do my best to follow this. 

Because real true love never fails, and neither will we.